bleh

blogging used to be a way to unwind myself. i complain a lot. and i do it better by writing instead of talking. and i used this. but somehow, all the people i know, know my blog. and yes, it is annoying.
when i first started out, i used to write more about the people around me. easy for me, nobody knew. but now, i have to encrypt what i want to say, because i might hurt someone, and heaven forbid, i shouldn't!
encryption, isn't easy business. and not complaining isn't easy either. whenever i feel like complaining, i talk to my wall and it comforts me by not giving me any comments. sucks. but i'll survive.
i even removed my blog from the website links from my facebook profile page, because, i don't want my family members or former classmates taking a sneak peek at this life i have. its like this, i have different social groups. family, real friends, internet buddies and then, you guys. and i don't like mixing everything. but somehow its all tangled up!
*sigh
i'll go write in my diary.

something i'll never understand!

life's short,
so why so much DRAMA?!

finally better than okay

ive always wanted to write one of those "how the last year changed my life" kinda post. mostly people do it at the end of the year or on their birthdays. and me? well, i figured id do it sometime random, sometime like now.
okay, so its not exactly a "how the last year changed my life" kinda post. its just a life update post kinda thingie.
hmm, lets see.
i finished my A levels, and i don't think i'll do very well. no im not one of those exceptionally talented "bright" students who always say that they'll get bad results and end up getting all distinctions. im just me, and i don't think i'll get good grades. bothers me a lil, but well, can't do much about it now can i?
and yes, i miss school terribly. i miss waking up in the morning, i miss having a timetable. i miss my tuitions. i miss hanging out with my friends everyday. but its life, i'll get over it.
what else?
yeah you must have heard about the lanka trip from shweet. it was fun. just the two of us. it definitely was a new experience. i learned to play with money, real money. definitely not like playing monopoly. and i used my wallet for the first time. i don't have any money to carry here so, hurray for me eh? plus it was a parent free trip, the best.
and i'm doing nothing right now. kinda sucks. i have nothing to do. im in this LOST phase. watching it from the beginning. everything makes sense now. but those who don't watch the show. what a loss. its good entertainment. and doing nothing is boring sometimes. i don't get bored to the core but im always around there somewhere. except nights. nights are great.


so, ive finished school. waiting for my results. doing nothing.
oo and yeah,
im happy. after a long time of being just okay.
:)

image (c) .me flickr
just a lil bit of lanka

20 random things about me

1. wear burugaa

2. know hindi, aap kaise ho?

3. think im very very fat, don't tell me im not!

4. shy, very

5. love coke! its the best!

6. love to stay indoors as much as going out

7. like twitter more than facebook, facebook dhen maa kanthah fala ee!

8. want a very good camera! lens lavvaa vahtharu!

9. very bad with shopping for gifts, specially for men! so i have munshi to help me! :D

10. hate gardening, the soil, the work! pis pis!

11. love to break the rules i make for myself, ehennoony dhuniye majaleh nuvaanu dho? :P

12. don't like talking about myself, mives varah undhagulun mi visneny!

13. love to hang out with people, love to have fun, adhi bandah thadhuvandhen heyn, fuuun!

14. hard to choose favourites among things such as song, artists, food, nikan drink ahaabala :P coke!

15. love my family to death, love love love them!

16. really sarcastic, heeveytha?

17. love walking, dhen male' ga why use transport dho? :P

18. really self-conscious!

19. cutting onions makes me cry like a baby, wahh!!

20. happy that muuthi tagged me :D i wasn't expecting it! :D

i tag munshi, anjelica and xeeko!

an update with a rainbow

a friend asked why i wasn't blogging. i told him that its because i have nothing to blog about. and then he told me to blog about that. i'm sorry dude, but i'm not gonna do that =P

hmm, what have i been up to eh?
well, i have been having fun! and about the list? don't even talk about it! i've done some of the stuff, but will do others and then maybe let you know later.
i've actually been reading, and hanging out with my cousins a lot these days. its fun. its like taking a long long long vacation or something. i would eventually have to do something, but i'm not thinking about it much at the moment.

life's pretty okay, thats why i don't blog. plus the whole politics stuff on internet is driving me crazy! sorry i haven't been commenting much.

i'll surely update when something sad happens =P

image (c) .me flickr
first rainbow capture

better late than never real life thingie

i asked someone a question one day
and i never got the reply
i wondered why he never replied

finally i realized it some days back
when someone else asked me the same question
and when i realized why i didn't want to reply

better late than never eh? :P

image (c) .me flickr

and its a lil confusig..

life is a constant battle to be loved
we message the people who ignore us
we study hard to get good grades, to make our parents proud
we do favours for friends, so they do not abandon you in your time of need

and sometimes
to be loved,
we just do nothing...

this is me.

day before yesterday.
hard times are coming, well, its kinda already here. yep. thats right. exams. and lets see whot else. campaign days? yep yep yep. annoying campaign songs? sure, why not? oh yeah it will end on 9th. so whot? it made the islam exams nearer. when is it? oh this THURSDAY! am i freaking out? nah, not yet. why do it now when i'll do it best on wednesday? what can you do to help? oh nuthing. wish me luck. whatever. oh wait, that won't help. it never helps. whats the cherry on top of my worry cake? bad nightmares. do they make sense? kinda. what is it about? personal. really? yep! am i crazy? nope. you think i am? yes. but i am not. am i normal? i ain't normal either. whats worrying you? oh you know, the slow computer, the hot climate, typical maldivian behaviour. and then..? oh the whole dunno what im gonna do in the future? shut the fuck up and stop asking me coz i dunno what im gonna do and its alright not to know but stupid people asking me such stupid questions gets on my nerves.

today
im alright.

rude rude rude

i wanna be rude

and you'll go like you can be rude to who ever you wanna be
and you'll ask whose stopping me
and you know what? nobody is
but being rude is just rude
and i keep making rude conversations in my mind
and i talk rude to myself

and know what?
i still wanna be rude