an update with a rainbow

a friend asked why i wasn't blogging. i told him that its because i have nothing to blog about. and then he told me to blog about that. i'm sorry dude, but i'm not gonna do that =P

hmm, what have i been up to eh?
well, i have been having fun! and about the list? don't even talk about it! i've done some of the stuff, but will do others and then maybe let you know later.
i've actually been reading, and hanging out with my cousins a lot these days. its fun. its like taking a long long long vacation or something. i would eventually have to do something, but i'm not thinking about it much at the moment.

life's pretty okay, thats why i don't blog. plus the whole politics stuff on internet is driving me crazy! sorry i haven't been commenting much.

i'll surely update when something sad happens =P

image (c) .me flickr
first rainbow capture

better late than never real life thingie

i asked someone a question one day
and i never got the reply
i wondered why he never replied

finally i realized it some days back
when someone else asked me the same question
and when i realized why i didn't want to reply

better late than never eh? :P

image (c) .me flickr

and its a lil confusig..

life is a constant battle to be loved
we message the people who ignore us
we study hard to get good grades, to make our parents proud
we do favours for friends, so they do not abandon you in your time of need

and sometimes
to be loved,
we just do nothing...

this is me.

day before yesterday.
hard times are coming, well, its kinda already here. yep. thats right. exams. and lets see whot else. campaign days? yep yep yep. annoying campaign songs? sure, why not? oh yeah it will end on 9th. so whot? it made the islam exams nearer. when is it? oh this THURSDAY! am i freaking out? nah, not yet. why do it now when i'll do it best on wednesday? what can you do to help? oh nuthing. wish me luck. whatever. oh wait, that won't help. it never helps. whats the cherry on top of my worry cake? bad nightmares. do they make sense? kinda. what is it about? personal. really? yep! am i crazy? nope. you think i am? yes. but i am not. am i normal? i ain't normal either. whats worrying you? oh you know, the slow computer, the hot climate, typical maldivian behaviour. and then..? oh the whole dunno what im gonna do in the future? shut the fuck up and stop asking me coz i dunno what im gonna do and its alright not to know but stupid people asking me such stupid questions gets on my nerves.

today
im alright.

rude rude rude

i wanna be rude

and you'll go like you can be rude to who ever you wanna be
and you'll ask whose stopping me
and you know what? nobody is
but being rude is just rude
and i keep making rude conversations in my mind
and i talk rude to myself

and know what?
i still wanna be rude

ugh, life!
most of my friends have their lives figured out, they have boyfriends to marry after an year or so or sometime! and a carrier.
and when i meet people and talk about it, i realize how unready i am. i seriously have no clue with what im gonna do after school. i run around making lists with hope that i do something without doing anything. but i dunno what i should do after that. whats next?
but then i realize that thats the thrill in my life. im not stuck on a fantasy island or im not going to a high school in beverly hills to have that much of drama in my life.
and i chose all of what i did over these few months to make my life a lil bit spontaneous. and it is. its slow, but its still spontaneous. slontaneous. and its due to the exams.
and if it doesnt get more exciting after the exams, maybe ill try finding a guy, set a marriage date, be a housewife and think of getting five kids.
now that would be interesting!

image (c) .me flickr

im busy with me exams
so go check my flickr or something
and wish me luck ^.^

the list

well, im posting this due to a request by the "nameless" he/she wanted to comment on this list of mine which has been down there all this time
feel free to suggest me some more crazy stuff
i want crazier stuff now coz the exams are starting to get deep into my head

things i wanna do after i finish my A levels

.one. go somewhere out of Maldives
.two. go to Eydhafushi, and stay there for atleast a month!
.three. do a bodukundhinge cake course
.four. bodu dhathureh dhiyun, with some people
.five. throw out my books
.six. colour my hair red
.se^en. make a new friend
.eight. go to a sleep over at someone's place, anyone will do
.nine. smile more
.ten. learn to cook
.eleven. paint my room red again
.twelve. pierce my ear, or something like that
.thirteen. buy a heera pannaa dhalhu
.4-teen. buy my own softlan fulhi and smell smell smelll
.15. make a new template
.sixteen. sit in a joalifathi listening to music all night
.seventeen. make one of those disco eley thingies like in la femme, they didn't sell it!!!
.8-een. get a scar
.nineteen. move to Forks, meet Edward and become a Vampire
.20. go cloud photographing

n so it continues...